Words of Wisdom

Don't make someone else your priority when you are their option.

Unhappy New Year

With two months down and ten to go, it looks like this is going to be a very trying year. Survival so far has been strongly dependent on maintaining a positive attitude, but sometimes, even that is difficult or impossible to do. SO the question becomes, what is really bugging me to make this an unhappy new year. First is the continued uncertainty about my health. Even with health care, I have difficulty rationalizing the counter opinions that I have received from the two primary care physicians that I have seen. The information from them both is the exact opposite of each other and this makes making a decision impossible for me. I have found that I need clear direction, no confusion and I can run with that. Where the information or advice is muddied or unclear, I have trouble making sense of it and I do not like to take action based on things that do not make sense. My second issue continues to be the economic situation we are all struggling with. Neither of my children has been successful in finding jobs and this weighs very heavily on my heart and my pocketbook. I love my children unconditionally and am not the kind of mother that can turn my head on helping them. Also, we are not alone. The outlook for this entire country is bleak if you are in the lower or middle class (which we are). The outlook for the wealthy is much better than it was when we got into this economic crisis and (thanks to the RepubliTeas) it will only keep getting better for them. I guess my next issue is being unlucky in love. It is a terrible thing to not realize the desires of your heart, and more and more I am coming to realize that my desire to be in an honest, heartfelt, committed relationship is not going to happen in my life time. Of all the things mentioned so far, this one makes me the saddest. I guess because I can see a solution to the other issues, but I can’t to this one. I am honestly unhappy and even sad that love has evaded my life and it seemed like such a simple thing to want.

So far it is an unhappy new year. Let’s see if it gets any better.